I thought of you yesterday, and for the first time in a long time I didn't cry. I think it was your way of telling me to quit my whining and be happy that you are in a better place. I always used to get frustrated when you would get on to me about grades or about something outrageuos I had said, but right about now even a "I'll bust you in your eye" from you would be amazing. Well anyways, I was thinking about the school store, and to make a long story short we were kinda thinkin about doing a party planning buisness. i thought, now this would be right up Becky's alley. But this time I didn't cry at the thought of you not being there to guide Helica & I as leaders of the company. No, I just laughed and reminisced on all the times I watched you run around like a chicken with your head cut off planning one of Helica or ricky's b-day parties, and the best any of us kids could do to help was stay the heck out of your way. But of course thats just what made you so amazing. The fact that you would rush around non stop just to make sure your kids had a special b-day. Case and point; Helica's quince. I don't think you slept for a whole year, you ate slept and breathed sweet 15. And man did you put on one amazing party.
But anyways I just thought I'd let you know that all that sadness has not gone away, but it's getting easier. All though I still look for that Monte Carlo in the school parking lot, and sometimes I even call the old phone because it just slipped my mind, I am able to celebrate you with memories instead of mourn. But I'm quite sure you already know all this, you told me you always know, and when I asked you what you said everything. I miss you.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope these few words from the Holy Scriptures might bring you some relief in your time of grief...
32 And so Mary, when she arrived where Jesus was and caught sight of him, fell at his feet, saying to him: “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.” 33 Jesus, therefore, when he saw her weeping and the Jews that came with her weeping, groaned in the spirit and became troubled; 34 and he said: “Where have YOU laid him?” They said to him: “Lord, come and see.” 35 Jesus gave way to tears. 36 Therefore the Jews began to say: “See, what affection he used to have for him!” 37 But some of them said: “Was not this [man] that opened the eyes of the blind man able to prevent this one from dying?”
38 Hence Jesus, after groaning again within himself, came to the memorial tomb. It was, in fact, a cave, and a stone was lying against it. 39 Jesus said: “TAKE the stone away.” Martha, the sister of the deceased, said to him: “Lord, by now he must smell, for it is four days.” 40 Jesus said to her: “Did I not tell you that if you would believe you would see the glory of God?” 41 Therefore they took the stone away. Now Jesus raised his eyes heavenward and said: “Father, I thank you that you have heard me. 42 True, I knew that you always hear me; but on account of the crowd standing around I spoke, in order that they might believe that you sent me forth.” 43 And when he had said these things, he cried out with a loud voice: “Laz´a·rus, come on out!” 44 The [man] that had been dead came out with his feet and hands bound with wrappings, and his countenance was bound about with a cloth. Jesus said to them: “Loose him and let him go.”
45 Therefore many of the Jews that had come to Mary and that beheld what he did put faith in him;
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thinking of you / Deanna Fink (friend) dearest becky,oh how you are missed!every day is a struggle for every one who knew you..i know you know how much you were loved, you have too.you raised two beautiful children that your love will shine through...just wish we could have done more to keep you here with us... but i guess god had a bigger plan for you and we'll never know.. but what ever it is i know that your shining and smiling and doing it proudly..you was and always will be a wondreful person no matter where you are... and i know your watching over your kids,family and your true friends...so until we meet again.....keep shining and smiling....your friend ,deanna
no the worst part was when my grandma looked me in the eyes and said "your aunt becky is still with us but only in our heartsshe is with her father now in heaven he needed her.
just rememboring the night before she was so happy,
that is when your heart falls apart
Miss you / Michelle Miller (Sister)
My Darling Little Becky / "Ma Ma" Kathy Graham (stepmom) I have always been so proud of you and I really hope that you knew it. You grew into a beautiful young woman and an awesome mother. The two wonderful children you left behind are proof of that. I think of you daily and miss you terribly. Someday I will join you and we can make up for the lost time. I LOVE YOU ...RIP
miss you girl / Gary Burden (cousin) to my very special girl i miss you so dearly,will always be in my heart
A Best Friend / Brandi Green (One of many.."Best friend" ) A BEST FRIEND A best friend is always there, whether you need advice, or a pep talk, or even a shoulder to cry on. A best friend listens with her heart and is always honest with you, even though the truth may not be what you want to hear. A best friend knows all your secrets, understands your fears shares your dreams. A best friend never stops believing in you even if you give up on yourself. you are that kind of friend to me. And no matter what happens, you always will be. You are my best friend.... my forever friend....."Becky Torres"
I think of you everyday / Michelle Miller (Sister)
I think of you everyday. I wonder if I could have or should have done more. I wonder if this is how things were meant to be or if there was something more that you needed from me. It feels awful when I think of how you were taken. Different conversations and scenarios run through my head all the time. I miss you so much and hope we can all someday find the peace you now have.
I Watched You I watched the way your eyes twinkled. I watched the way your smile gleamed. Everything so perfect, it was all I wanted to be. You taught me how to primp. You taught me how to style. Always your little shadow, we’d ride our bikes for miles. Sisters are forever. Sisters are friends. Even if we’d argue and fight, we always made up in the end. The tree house, skating, secret clubs behind closed doors, Singing, dancing, laughing, I couldn’t love you more. I watched you build your family. I watched you help your friends. I watched as you gathered us, Time and time again. Dreams, wishes, hopes and fears, Good or bad you were always there. You lived by example. You led like a light. You went to church every Sunday and tucked your kids in at night. You were a beautiful person inside and out. You taught me what growing up was all about. Sisters are forever. Sisters are friends. My heart will ache until we meet again. -Written by Michelle Miller in loving memory of her sister Rebecca Ruth Torres
Still missing you all the time / Michelle Miller (Sister) I have been trying to update the site and pictures don't want to load but you best friend Liz is amazing. She fixed up a beautiful old car and painted it purple. She takes it to car shows and has you beautiful picture displayed next to it in your memory, in your honor, to make sure you will never ever be forgotten. On top of that, she donated a cherry tree in your memory and it was planted at Beecher High School (Just one of the places you had such an impact). Your memory continues to live on in all of our hearts and now in a living memorial in the cherry tree that will live on for years and years. It will have a plaque with your name that will let people know, you were here, you lived and you loved and you are remembered. Miss you all the time. Miss you with every day that passes and every memory made that you should be here for. Love and miss you always sis.
It still hurts / Michelle Miller (Little sister ) I do have more times that I can smile when I think of you but most of the time it still brings tears to my eyes. I miss you beyond belief. Life here goes on but it will never be the same without you. Everything seems to remind me of you. Songs people sayings stories even some sounds. We were all blessed to have you as long as we did. You brought people together. You made people laugh. Your smile lit up entire buildings. You helped anyone you could anytime you could. You were an amazing mother to your children. You were involved in your community and with the school. You were so many things to so many people. I am one of many who feel like we let you down. Like we didn't protect you. Your birthday is next week and you are on my mind. I wish we could go out like the old times. I wish I could call you and sing happy birthday. I wish alot of things were different but mostly I wish you were here. Some days it just seems so much harder to deal with. Sometimes I hear stories on the news about someone elses tragedy and it takes me right back. I feel the pain all over again. I don't feel as much anger as I did at first. Now it is more of just a hurt. A deep down feel it in your heart and feel it in the pit of your stomach kinda hurt. Ok I guess I rambled enough but know always that I love you and I miss you from the bottom of my heart sis.
What a beautiful Rose our Becky / Rhonda Craig Sehon's Mom (visitor)
So this is it / Michelle Miller (Little Sister ) Ok Sis. Court is over and now what. You are still gone and I still miss you so much. Thre are so many times I just wish you were here. Now we have to all figure out how to move on. Not how to forget you I never want to do that but how to move on and heal and use what we have learned to help others. I have to do something to carry on your legacy...not really an option just not sure how I am supposed to be doing that yet. I hope I will figure it out soon. I miss you and I love you and I always will. RIP my sweet sister. This still just seems like a bad movie sometimes.
To my second mother / Brianna Neely (Play daughter ) I still can't believe that something like this could happen to a woman who would do anything for any one. Becky was like my second mother she whooped me and talked to me as if i were her own child. I remember Spending the night pom-pom birthday party's and many other events with Becky that made my life joyous. She knew how to make you laugh and just have a good time. I miss her so much and She may be gone from this Earth but she is in a much better place and shall forever live in my heart. We shall meet again mama I love you! muah!
My loving Becky / "Ma Ma" Kathy Graham (stepmom) If love could have saved you you would have lived forever. I love and miss you. RIP
I am so sorry / Michelle Miller (Sister) It breaks my heart apart to find out the things you had to endure in life. It breaks my heart that you didn't tell me earlier this was going on. You let me know there was some trouble Becky but I had no idea the extent. You on the outside just all smiles that beautiful smile that I miss so much. It kills me when I think of what you must have been feeling under that beautiful smile. It kills me that I your sister didn't see past that smile and know enough to get you out of there earlier before it was to late. I am sorry sister. I am so very sorry.